I posted this status a few days ago on my FaceBook page. Music truly is my solace. When I need to feel peace, or express my emotions, I go to my piano. I need it.. it keeps me somewhat sane.
The trials I have been going through have made me a stronger person. I also have lost myself in these trials. I forgot who I am. Music has been the constant companion of these trials... and I know that God has been the founding source to inspire me.
Now, I feel like a different person. I am not the same as I was 5 years ago. At this point, I don't know if I will ever be the same, which is not a bad thing. I am more reserved, observant as well as very cautious.
I feel as I am getting older, that I can say anything I want, and not be intimidated by anyone. I won't tolerate people treating me bad. I won't tolerate other people treating my friends poorly as well. I will tell you how I am feeling if I feel like I want to. I won't tolerate people making fun of my children's choices regarding their career(s). I have learned to open my mouth and express what I want. The past is the past, and while I may be forgiving, I won't put an un-trustworthy person back into my inner circle.
My heart has been broken, rebuilt and changed. I have come out of the latest of trials on my knees, realizing I need to humble myself, yet stand up for myself and become an independent being filled with love for my friends.....forgiving, less judgmental... BUT aware.
I am very grateful for those of you that have stood by me and helped while I fell to my knees. I know I am not the most perfect person in the world, but I want you all to know that I am glad you hung in there with me.
My album "Fire in the Rainstorm" is written.. its ready to go... now I need the patience to save everything I can to record it. I hope you are patient with me in this journey to release this album. I may post previews of the songs!
Peace in Music!!
Paz en Musica!!
Pace nella Musica!
Frieden in Musik!
La paix dans la Musique!
A paz em Música!
More to come...